Looking back

How happy am I seeing 'Welcome Home' upon opening my website.

Cause I need to look back. Who am I? What I'm gonna do?

Wind of Change

Wind of Change, a song by Scorpion. I don't know about the song at first but I've listened to it several times coincidentally. Well, I don't want to talk about the song in this post.  That's not my intention. What I want to write is about  changes.

To be 20, it's like you're in the middle. Neither a child nor an adult. Somehow it's confusing when people around you treat you either both but you're not fit to it. The more you grow up, the more you learn about adult stuff and conflicts that you say it'll be good if you're only a child with no worries.  But it doesn't work so. I guess that's what makes life meaningful. You'll learn about other different taste, whether it's more tastier or not. To get the best, you have to face the worst too.

Nahh, this's good about writing that I could tone down the hustle bustle of adult conflicts.

Conflicts about family in laws, egos, politics and it just mixed up. Traumatized with weddings and the stuff. Marriage should be a starting to build good society but all I see is 'corruption'. Corrupted by our attitudes. I don't know how I can survive in this.
Don't know how to write it more.

New lesson of new thing.

Love. Thing that I seldom have a thought about it. As I don't want to distract my time and focus for 

the things that I shouldn't. *But what am I doing right now? 

Well I need to write about it as I have heard something that's very new to me and ironic.

Nah, here it is.

I finished answering my Counseling Paper and decided to go ut early. I was the first student of my batch to go out.  It's because too cold inside there plus I have completed and checked my answers. Then, I found a spot to sit and waited for my other friends where, there was a senior. Along waiting, we made a conversation.

And I don't remember the starting -how I discover about her marriage story as along it I was too fascinated hearing from her. Maybe it started when she mentioned her husband.

Me, 'what you're already married?!' When? -She is in Year 3 now.

She said ,when she was in 19. Wow. That surprised me. Yeah, I always heard about people at my age marrying early and it's normal but to discover it by my self it's kind of a new thing for me as there is 

always the same question that arises in my mind - is she or he is prepared for it? How would it be to

step and live in a new phase?

Well for now,I don't discover about it yet. But the new lesson I learned is 'Unconditional love' is really exist! Yeah I know it is. Like parents love :)

But to hear in perspective of life partner is a new thing to me.

She said, she was fat, dark and his husband was contradict to her. She exclaimed that if other girls

saw her husband, they might fall for him. Add her, at first she did not know her husband at all except he always went to her family stall. And one day he proposed to her directly from her parents! 

That was braved enough.

The irony is, it gives lesson to me that love is not about the appearances at all in the world full of

materialism we live today and perfectionism we expected. 

That's the lesson. 

Well, I don't want to be so dissolved in talking about this thing too much as there are more priorities 

that I need to be concerned about. Just a sharing about new thing that I discover.Irony. :)